Tuesday, October 29, 2013

How Suicide Nearly Took Me To Hell

Many years ago when I was living in the world, I had a lot of trouble with depression. I would feel dark all day. I didnt have any light in my life. I didnt get any normal enjoyment out of the things I did and things I chased after. Recently I was watching a video about a wingsuit skydiver who had a lot of trouble in his life with depression and was wanting to kill himself many time, to commit suicide. And so he decided to do dangerous things. He got himself hurt doing base-jumping and dangerous activities where his life was on the line. He said he only had one life and might as well make the best of this life. He really did have a problem with the point of life. I used to be in this situation as well as this young man. And I didnt really see the point of life either. To me it seemed a waste of time. I used to feel so dark on days that I just wanted to end myself on this earth. I would think of ways that I could do it. And sometimes I got very close to doing those things. Because I figured; well it is better to be on the other side than this side since this side is so full of darkness. I was indeed in a lot of darkness. There was one thing that always troubled my mind a great deal and that was the words of a certain brother who was in the police force and he used to see a lot of suicide victims in his corse of work. He say police officers commit suicide. He was a believer in the Lord and knew that those who commit suicide end up in hell as it is written.

The Lord said “I will destroy him who destroys my temple”. Our bodies are to be the temple of God. I always knew that the end of a life where we die in darkness and we die in no hope thinking that it is all going to be over, it ends in the FIRE, the eternal fire of hell. I knew that once you are there, it is over. There is no more hope. You cannot repent, and you cannot get out. The devil has you. He has you my friend, if you go and kill yourself today and end your life because you feel there is no more point for living. Now I used to fell the same way, and was going to do that many times. But you see I could not forget those words. I could not forget that he said that the people who commit suicide they end up in hell. I knew that was true. A lot of people will try and doubt these things. The will say “Oh well it is just religion why do you believe in religion”. But I knew it was true. I was not deceiving myself. So I held back on my recklessness and I started to pray to the Lord and he started to reach out to me and he brought me out of my darkness and he brought me into a new life. I began to realise that I was to blame for the darkness that I was in because I had refused to turn to the light on so many occasions.. I was choosing darkness everyday so demons were coming around and putting on me all these demonic feelings that try to drive people to kill themselves in this world. And it is all of the devil, it is of the devil. Once he can get us to kill ourselves, he is waiting to wrap us in chains and take us off to the fires of hell. But I realised there is more to life than our own pursuits, our own fun in the way of the world. I already didn’t like those things because I felt everything was a bit pointless. But what I found was that there is a point to life and that is through Jesus Christ. He is the point.

Once I realised that, I went to the Lord and he transformed me and gave me a new way. He revived my Spirit. He gave me meaning and a purpose and a joy and took away my darkness. The demons left. They didn’t bother me anymore with these kinds of feelings and thoughts. I found complete redemption from the old hopeless way to this new way in Jesus Christ. I found a purpose for living. I found a love that I didn’t have before from God. I found a love for other people and that is why I am here because I realised that everybody can be part of the enteral kingdom of God. This life is not just about your life then it is over then that is it. This life is about the eternal kingdom of God and the people who end up in there. This life is also about people who go to hell. And so these two realities are going to dominate eternity one day. Many people are going to have regret forever in the fire. Other people are going to have redemption and joy peace and light in the kingdom of God through Jesus Christ. Because they realise that he indeed is the way the truth and the life. He is the light. If you walk in him with him, you do not walk in darkness. But if you walk in the darkness, the devils will be your companions. That is where all these problems come from. When we are on the brink of committing suicide and playing dangerous sports that can cause us to die at any moment, we are on the cusp of hell and about to be cast into the eternal fire forever. No more hope to change and repent. No more hope to come on the narrow way. But I found the hope. I found the transformation and purpose. The reality of Jesus Christ who loves us all. It is through him that I have come on the new way, the narrow way, the way of the cross, the way the apostles all walked. The way of having the Spirit of God come to you. It is amazing dear friends.

It surpasses anything else on this earth. It is the only way to go. If your life is empty and you just feel there is no point to it, or you want to kill yourself, I tell you there is a point, there is a way to go. The way is through Jesus Christ. Now you can just go and end yourself and end up in the fire, or you can decide today, to do what I did and seek the Lord. Find his reality for yourself because he is real and he does come into the lives of people who seek him. I am living evidence of that. And when you seek him he will come and help you. You will no longer be in darkness. You will not longer have that pain and hurt inside driving you to want to end your life. You will no longer have the darkness clouding your head everyday wishing the pressure would go away. It is a miraculous change and it comes through the Lord Jesus Christ. He is the only way. You will never get meaning out of your life doing all these wonderful dangerous sports and thrills. It will all wear off and you will just be left with yourself broken and dark. There is no way out friends. You have to go to the Lord Jesus Christ. That is what I did and that is why I am here sharing this testimony today how I was in that situation and how I wanted to end myself many times. I was listening to the dvil. I was walking in darkness. But I found the light and Jesus Christ brought me on a new way and he gave me the power to walk afresh. To walk a new way and I have never looked back dear souls…....

Thursday, October 17, 2013


And even though we've struggled with many troubles and trials, we can still praise God even though we have many desires of evil and I want to bring to your attention today this struggle, this struggle of life. Because I know very well that many of you and I get a lot of people that message me about this, they do struggle with troubled desires of sin and and some people struggle with homosexuality. I get other people often message me about that too. Other people struggle a lot with a lust problem. Some people find themselves in a lustful lifestyles that they don't want to be a part of anymore, but keep getting dragged down by. And there's only one answer and that is to make that decision today to dedicate to the Lord Jesus. I wanted to talk about that today; this struggle that goes on inside in our hearts in our very hearts and mind daily, how it can just bring us down to a way that we just don't want to be. This is what happens when we are slaves of sin. People they say; I was born this way I didn't have any choice in the matter… and you know I wish I wasn't this way but that's just how I am…. that's what people say and it's actually true. I will tell you why, it is because we been born into a flesh that loves sin. That is just how it is. The flesh of Adam, the fallen nature. It is written that from a very young age we just want to go and sin its true. We have to be taught the right way to behave by our father. And how much is God a better father than our fathers to teach us the way. And he's already taught us the way to go, it is to go the way of Jesus Christ hallelujah. And so it is true that we have these troubles and trials and desires and ways that we're born into, that is true. We are born into many evil things many many curses, family curses generational curses all kinds of problems and trials. All awful things. Some people say well why was I created gay I didn't want to be. So common these people start to go with the popular flow of the world when they start to condone these sort of sins and start to think this sin must be okay now.

Other people struggle with more serious sins that might be against the law and not accept by society like sleeping with one's relatives, all kinds of terrible things that people can do like Paul rebuked the Corinthians for. And just because that's not lawful at this time you know in the future people might start saying it's okay too. So then people say well now I just want to go that way well let me go that way. But the thing is friends we can't deceive ourselves. If we follow our flesh which is inherently evil, will we not reap destruction? I read from Jeremiah 17:9: evil thoughts struggles desires they want to rule and pollute us, so reading here; heart is deceitful above all things and it is desperately wicked and who can understand it. And that is true. Clearly if we have anything to do with ourselves, our own way, we clearly are going to fall short of God absolutely. I tell you your heart is desperately wicked. I don't care whether it's a homosexual desire or another desire, it is wicked and if you follow any of that, you are going to perish. It is desperately wicked so we don't want to be following our heart. I know the world says follow your heart. They say that all right, why? They are the world but the world is perishing and all those who live in the world are perishing. We don't want to listen to them they say follow your heart.

I want to read you what somebody wrote here David Wilkerson; the mind becomes so distorted by sin that causes men to fear cancer yet they laugh at hell. They will seek help for a toothache yet let their souls decay through negligence. Only as time goes by does sin reveal its true cancerous nature. A man sins then because he doesn't drop dead he thinks it is not dangerous so he has seared his conscience giving him no pains and the burden of sin slowly grows and the suspect has no idea how high sin has heaped in his life. Now that is very true that when we start to sin and and become slaves of sin it just becomes bigger and bigger in our lives where we start to ignore it. And that's what happens when we don't know Jesus. That is what it comes down to. When you don't know Jesus and when Jesus has not set you free from sin, you're going to be following all your evil desires because that's what you're choosing to do and going to follow your heart because that's what the world says for you to do, and going to be so completely lost that you would never find any kind of way that you can follow. Just completely lost. Friends we don't want to be lost. We want to make sure that we are dedicated to the truth that we can find the Lord hallelujah. Now I want to read to you about this trouble of sin from Romans 6:19 where Paul said; in the past you voluntarily gave your body to sin and for the service of wickedness, for the purpose of evil… you voluntarily did it with your choosing. Friends it is our choice to want to follow our raging desires and especially when raging during temptation. Instead why don't we choose to put it out instead?

Find the new way. And I want to talk to you about that new way today. That new way is when we dedicate to the Lord Jesus Christ and we turn away from sin and we seek to know him. What happens is the Lord comes into your heart and make you a new way. That's what the Lord did for me that's why I'm here. I'm here to warn people about this new way because the word of God came to abide in me. That's what Jesus said. He said I will come to abide in you (he said he was the word of God) if you obey my commandments. He said if you obey me and love me I will come in to live with you, my father will come in to live with you, and his Holy Spirit will come in and be with you. We will reveal ourselves to you. And so that's why Paul writes that even though he had this death struggle against sin, he said that the answer was through Jesus Christ and that when he came to the Lord that's when he became a changed man. He said that the flesh no longer ruled him. He said daily crucify the flesh by the power of the Spirit. It will not rule you. So when sin reigns completely it causes total self delusion. It causes people to be come unacquainted with themselves so they don't know what they really should think what they should love or hate. Sinners become slighters of Christ who hardly every again think of salvation or righteousness, because sin destroys the understanding of spiritual things and only grants freedom to fulfil it's own self gratification. Now that's what David Wilkinson wrote about it. He was a believer. And since we know friends that the flesh is evil who can understand it, desperately wicked beyond all things, should we not be turning away from it? And people say; I struggle with these desires! Well what are we struggling with friends?

You know what we are struggling with, we're struggling with our flesh wanting to go DO that desire. That's what we're struggling with. Let us be honest here. We want to do that. The flesh loves that. It loves that so that's why it wants to go and do that. The people they struggle with lustful desires so they say; well I'm so tempted by all this lust, I want to go and do it what can I do? I want to tell you the truth today is that what you're struggling with is you're own destiny. You are actually struggling with your own choice. You are trying to work out whether or not you really want to follow the flesh, or you want to deny yourself, deny that flesh and go to Jesus and start praying and choose him instead. And so people they get into temptation and cry out to the Lord and say; Lord help me. And the Lord helps them because they're choosing to follow him. But other people get into temptation and the voice of sin cries out to them; come my way… and they go off and fall to the temptation and they go that way. What have they gained? They proved one thing; they proves that they WANTED sin, but they didn't want to go and reject sin and pray to Jesus. So they said; I am so hopelessly enslaved to sin I seem to fall to temptation every day and keep going down and down. But the thing is we CHOOSE that. It's our own choice. I read again Romans 6:19; Paul said; in the past you voluntarily gave your bodies to the service of sin… voluntarily…. It was your own involuntary purpose to go and do that, because we were all born into sin friends.

Hopeless slaves to sin from the very beginning. So you can never find deliverance from your sin and from your temptation you keep falling to, if you cannot access your RESPONSIBILITY to deal with it and WANT freedom. It comes down to if you really want freedom, you're going to go to the Lord Jesus today and seek him like never before, turn away from your sin like never before and seek the Lord, because the power to be free from your action of sin is through Jesus Christ. The temptation of sin isn't bondage. The desires of sin inside are not bonding either, you can put them out. But the actual doing of sin like acting on those desires and following those desires, that's what sin is and that's what brings you into bondage to the devil. Fantasising on those desires does also because Jesus said about sins of the mind, that they also bring us into the bondage of sin because once we start accepting sin in our minds, we're going to go off and do the sin sooner or later. So friends we got to start being serious about our hearts. We got to know that our heart which is our flesh is wicked beyond all things. Yes it does have evil desires. Let us be at peace with that today. Our flesh does have evil desires and just because they might be worse desires that your brother doesn't mean that somehow you're going to miss out on the kingdom. Some people have worse desires than others that is true, but the thing is all sin ends in the same place. The older you get the more mature your flesh might get its own desire yes, but the thing is we just don't need to follow the flesh so we can just be crucifying it upon the cross daily anyway regardless of how bad it is. You know the thief on the cross was being crucified on the cross, his flesh.

And that was because he was a wicked thief. He broke into people's houses, robbed from people and caused them to not provide for their children. Was pretty hard in those days. Once he was on the cross and Jesus Christ was beside him, he finally decided to repent luckily for him, and Jesus gave him mercy, because Jesus died for the sins of the world. He came to bring sinners to repentance and to freedom. The problem is these days people don't realize this, because they are acquainted with the real gospel of Jesus. They have been fed too many lives from all these false Christian doctrines. They don't realise that Jesus came to call sinners to repent and to freedom from sin. They might agree that he came to call people to repent, but their idea of repenting is that you follow the flesh every day, you sin in your flesh every day, you choose your flesh every time you get tempted, but then at night you say sorry to God for choosing your flesh that day and just keep doing that everyday. They think that's what repenting is, and so don't understand the next step that Jesus Christ came to set you free from doing sin. Like from the actual bondage of that sin. They reject that completely as soon as anybody wants to tell them that, because when they hear about that they say well you know I'm a slave to sin, they know they are. So they reject it straightaway saying I am already saved it is all fine. But friends we can't deceive ourselves. This is what happens is people let themselves become deceived. And what happens with people when they get deceived is that they start to make up for themselves other doctrines that are not even in the Bible for the start even though they use Bible verses, and they use these verses only to give themselves more of a peace of mind about the way they are on because they know they are not on the right way. We all know that deep down if we are in sin or false ways. We can deceive ourselves all the way to the grave and many wakeup in hell this way.

They let themselves be deceived. But we are not here for deception. We are here to know the simple truth that any child can know as well. It is easy; we know that our bodies don't want to follow the right way, that is true. Our bodies have all kind of problem born into all kinds of flaws. Our very nature is polluted. It's even written in Jeremiah that the heart of man which is the very core of our being, is wicked beyond knowledge. Absolutely beyond knowledge, deceitful beyond all things. How do you think there can be anything really good in you. People can't go to heaven just on their good work, because nothing good in us, even if we have a level of morality the world has. Sure the world's people who aren't right with God they still love people around them. They give to the poor. They do many wonderful things that look quite good in the eyes of man, but on the deep down friends nothing but evil inside. And really when we're just living in our flesh we're not going to be pleasing God one bit. There is only one hope for you who struggle with sin, struggling with your desire of sin while you're actually enslaved to the sin. You are going and doing it. You just feel bad about it, you can't be at peace with it. You cannot be at peace with your sin. Some people can be. They have deceived perceive themselves so far that they've become to be at peace with their sin.

They have deceived themselves. But for you who still have a conscious and are not at peace with your sin, and you know that is not right, you know that you want to stop! Well you got hope today, because you can know today that you don't have to be ruled by your flesh, one, two, there is somebody that can free you from your flesh from being ruled by it, and that person is Jesus Christ the living God. He is the only way there is a way there is a way, but it will take something on your behalf. It will mean that you have to really want him and want his freedom because what is the real point of you wanting to be free of desires and things that plague, if you don't really want to be free? Like when temptation comes, you try and justify these things to yourself and you go off and do it. You obviously don't want to be free you don't really want to be free. But for you who you really really want to be free, you just give anything just to be free of doing sin so you can be with the Lord, you have hope, Why? Because if you go to the Lord in prayer and start praying, you start giving yourself to the Lord, and property start seeking him who hears from heaven, he WILL come into your life. That is WILL. Jesus said: I stand at the door and knock, I will come in. and that's what I did. I opened the door, the Lord came in. that very night I was free from all the sins I was committing before that point. I didn't come to the Lord in my committing of sin. I came to the Lord in repentance of committing of sin. I said to the lord I was very sorry for all the things.

I realized this is wrong and I was like you and didn't want to continue to do it. And so I went to the Lord and he freed me. When Jesus does come inside, he does free you from your bondages. Can be in bondage to drugs. Some people are a slave to alcohol or cigarettes or even drugs like illegal drugs, prescriptions. And Jesus can free people straight away as well. He has the power to free the bondage. Sin is the same as an addiction and people are addicted to cigarettes and also also addicted to lust and who knows what else, and it all gives them pleasure but it kills them in the end. The cigarettes kill the body but the lust and the other things they are addicted to they also kill the soul. And so the thing is friends all these addictions are bondages that Jesus comes to set people free from. Now I am not saying that he sets you free from your flesh wanting to go back to sin. He doesn't set you free from temptation because Jesus also wants to see that after he has set you free from sin, he wants to see your heart. Do you have a good man's heart where you hear the word and become a doer of the words and you continue to walk in that path with Jesus in freedom all the way to the end? Or are you going to be like the heart where the seed landed on the stony ground and the person heard the word of this truth I am saying about Jesus Christ, he believe and accepted it for little while then the enemy came and snatched it away and it died. Or are you going to be the heart of the man who heard the word and it landed on the weedy ground, and the cares of life grew up and especially the lusts of the flesh, and they choked out the seed and it died! Yes died. Friends this is the thing; what ground are we going to be? And this is where Jesus is looking. He is looking at our choices. It's not just you go to Jesus and you get free from sin and then bam you're in heaven, no. It would be nice if it was that quick like it was for the thief on the cross, but a lot of us have time ahead of us, trials ahead of us, temptations ahead of us, but he who stands firm until the end will be saved.

I will tell you something; if that thief on the cross was let off and didn't die, he would've been following the Lord like the disciples were, and would have been part of that first church being persecuted for Christ, for he was indeed a believer in Jesus Christ and became born again. So you Christians who say; hey he was just a sinner on the cross till the day he died then just went to heaven actually….you know he repented and God knew his heart. You know a lot of these people they say I accept the gospel and I repent, I am a believer…and they have a smoke in one side of their mouth and an “f” word hanging out the other side of their mouth, and they sometimes are drinking and partying and having fun in the world, they really think that they've got a seed in their heart. They don't realised that all these weeds around them are getting so big and strong that they're literally choking the life out of them. Just choking the life out of them. It is terrible friends. We cannot let sin cut us out for the kingdom of God and have our seed die. And so that's why I talk about today about total self-delusion. Self-delusion is where we let ourselves become blinded by our flesh and instead of denying the flesh and picking up our cross and following Jesus, we forget about Jesus, we forget that he cleansed us from sin, and we become under a total self-delusion by following our sin and letting it become darkness. Now I want to read to you what John said about that. He didn't say about ALL sin. He gave an example of one sin about not loving your brother, and he said that in 1 John; if anybody does not love his brother, darkness has entered his eye and blinded him. He has come under a self-delusion. That's what happens with other sin as well. When you start hating somebody, Jesus said you are a murderers so you're letting darkness into your eye and your are blinded.

Now John wasn't talking to sinners, he was talking to a Christian brother another Christian. And so he is say to this Christian; if you let the devil get into your heart against that brother, that has probably wronged you or done something you don't like, so you hate him in your heart or fight with him, John is saying you're letting darkness into you. You're letting your eye gets blinded. And that doesn't go only for that sin. It goes for other sins as well. Jesus talked about unforgivness. He said that if you don't forgive I won't forgive you. So when you don't forgive people, you let blindness get in and darken your eye. It will blind you, thinking you might be in the light still when you're actually in darkness. So many people think they are in the light and Jesus said if the light you think is light but it actually darkness, how dark must the darkness really be. And that's what happens to us when we start to accept and condone our flesh desires and sins. That is why people in the church starts to say that it's okay to be gay. It's okay to be this or that now. You can fornicate a bit before marriage, God is going to understand…not only those two sins, there are other sins as well that they might think are ok. It is ok to rip off the government and to take unlawful benefits from the government without having them your situation. Its okay to cheat the tax office if you could write up a nice lying paper about it hiding your affairs in the church.

These are just a few examples of sins that christians can try and say are ok these days. A little white lying they might say is ok too if it saves their skin. The thing is friends what this does is lets darkness into our eye and blinds us to the truth and we become in darkness. Same goes for all kinds of things. I could open up the lid and all these sins come flying out, there are so many, I can't speak about them all. Friends let us not be blinded to the truth in darkness having our eyes blinded. Let us look at sin how it is. Go and look at yourself, your flesh, go and realized today but hey your flesh is wicked beyond all things. Go and look in there and say; hey look this desire that desire, all these things maybe I was born with it, I don't know I don't care, but let's just live with this and decide to be putting it out and no longer follow the flesh because we already know that it is born into evil anyway. And it is already deceitfully wicked beyond all imagination already. As paul said if you live after your flesh you will certainly die, you will perish. But if you crucify the flesh by the power of the spirit daily, you are going to find life. That is for us who have the spirit of God. So the very first step that we must take today dear friends, is first to repent and go to Jesus so he can come into us. Open up the door so he can come in. once he comes into you then you have a new way to follow. But till he comes into you, you got no new way to follow you only know one way and that is your flesh. So how can we be free from the flesh friends if that's all we are anyway and our soul is in bondage to it completely, daily we do our sin because we are stuck by our flesh and we are enslaved to it in every way! There is only one way friends, we have to become crucified in Christ which comes from deciding you want to be free today and going and repenting and then go to the Lord in tears. Just pray and ask Lord come know me. Open the door up in your heart. Be serious about the lord and he will surely come into you and he'll bring about that new change.

That's why I'm speaking to you today because that is exactly what the Lord has done for me. When you open up your heart the lord will come in and he will bring about that change. Then and only then can you deny the flesh and follow the spirit because you do have a new way to follow. Its old fairy tales to somebody who doesn't have the Spirit. They don't know what else to follow. They only got their flesh. They've only got the way that is in bondage to the devil, and that's all of us until we repent and turn to the Lord. That's why jesus christ is such good news because without him you surely can do nothing. How can you abide with Jesus and sin not if you don't know Jesus and you're just in your flesh doing your own way. It's impossible. Once we are free in Christ and he is in us, then we can crucify our desires day. Then we can turn away from temptation and blessed is the man who endures under temptation and stays with the faith and stands firm to the end because when he has done so all the way to the end, he shall be saved as the scriptures say. It is only at that point friends that we can do all these wonderful things that belong to the christian life. We can't even apply any part of the new testament to your life until you give yourself to the lord and he has come into you. As it says in Galtians 2;20 I'vve been crucified with Christ, it no longer I who lives but Christ lives in me and the life I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God who loved me and gave himself to me… and so Paul had Christ in him. Now how can you follow this way and crucify yourself with Christ if you don't even know him and he is not in you.

That is the powerless gospel of the unbelievers is that they somehow believe in Jesus yet they don't even know him because he is not in them. How can they follow anything else but their flesh because that is all they want anyway and they want to keep being gay. That is why you see so many Christians in the church who say I am gay but Gods loves me and I am on my way to heaven still. Somehow they lie to themselves that they are in the light when the darkness has blinded their eye. They don't even know the Lord, he is not in them. Friends, we got to start being serious about the Lord. Galatians 5:24; Now those who belong to Jesus Christ have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Belong to Christ. Once again you have to have Jesus come and live in you, be with you. Otherwise how can you crucify the flesh and its passions and desires if you don't have Christ in you? It is impossible. It is like trying to split your personality into 2 separate parts somehow living one way on one side and another way the other side. Now people do that and stye a split personality disorder. But the thing is they split or are split into evil paths because as we read earlier there is nothing good in the flesh. IT is time to get to know the Lord and crucify the flesh and live according to Jesus Christ so we can crucify the passions of the flesh. So when you struggle with all these passions and desires trying to come back and tempt you, you can put them out. That is why I can put out my desires is because I have Christ in me. How can I put out my desires alone? Or put myself out? Can I put myself out? As Jesus said; How can cast himself out.

You have to have Christ cast satan out. We all got satan in our flesh. The ways of satan. As it is written wickedness. How can we cast out of ourselves that which is evil? If we ourselves are evil? Can evil cast out evil? This is where we have to start to get a Spiritual awakening where you actually do realise that Jesus is real and he actuallly comes into your heart when you pray. That is when you can voluntarily give yourself to the Lord, and so you can really experience a real spiritual revelation and experience with the Lord where he becomes part with you. Now how many of you here had the Lord come into your heart and change you? If you have not then it is time to pray and it is time to seek with faith. That is how you please God and how you find the Lord. If you repent and seek him but you got to voluntarily want that. There is not point going to God if you cannot let go of your sin. You can say God I want to know you…but you also want your sin as well, so God will not hear you. It is written somewhere in John that God will not hear prayers of sinners. He will not hear. He will not hear you if you blocked off from God in your sin and you wont repent of it. He only hears those who repent. His ear is looking for the man who repents. Go read it for yourself in John. It is written there that God will not hear the sinner unless they repent. So if you want to blind yourself to the reality of our sinful flesh, and we want to think somehow it is normal and ok and we don't want to think it is wicked and sinful like it is written Jeremiah, then what hope do we have in finding God if he has blocked himself from you? You will never find him if he has blocked himself from you. But when you admit your sin, when you acknowledge it is wrong and decide to repent in tears, that is when you will be heard by God. And that is when he will come into you. But if you don't rend your heart over your sin, and you just want to keep doing it, then what hope do you have friends of finding God? You just wont find him. He is not near to the sinner. He is only near to those who decide to repent of their sin. Not to those who go on in sin. He calls them to repent but he is not near to them unless they repent as you can read in John. Read it for yourself there if you doubt me. Once we come to know the Lord we can fall to sin that is true. You can fall to a false way and start becoming blinded forgetting you were cleansed from your past sin. That is why we have to turn away daily. That is why Paul said.

He was talking to you who have found Jesus. He is not talking about you who don't know Jesus at all (in his letters) and you are still doing your sin daily. Paul is talking to people who have found Jesus and repented and been filled with the Holy Spirit and they follow Jesus. He is not talking to the Christians who don't know Jesus at all, and in fact they are worse off than the pagans because not only do they not know Jesus at all, their hope of finding him is very slim because they are blinded by religion. Paul is not speaking to them, he is speaking to people who know Jesus and have him come into their heart, able to have his reality, able to praise his name and be filled with the Spirit, baptised in the name of Jesus as real followers of the Lord who know Jesus is real, a reality in their life. He is talking to those Christians and he is saying to them; Do not let sin rule you but rule it, crucify the flesh by the power of Christ IN you, putting it out daily living according to the Spirit. That is what he is saying, living according to the Spirit. And so he says again; Consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to Christ you who know the Lord.

For you who do not know him, you have to seek the Lord to know him like Peter warned all those people who didn't know the Lord. He said; Cry out to God, pray for mercy and have salvation for your souls through Jesus Christ. And some people believed in Jesus Christ that very day and they got baptised in his name and started to speak in new tongues and got filled with the Holy Spirit. They got changed by the reality of God that very day. Why? Because they believed. If you really believed you would realise the reality of Jesus Christ and he would come into your life praise the Lord. Is it not wonderful. If you realise the reality of Jesus Christ, he will come into your life so that you can deny all your evil desires inside and put them all out and follow the Spirit which has come to be in you. But how can you follow the Spirit if you don't know the Lord? That is my questions to you today; how can you follow the Spirit if you don't have the Spirit? It is time to SEEK!...

Tuesday, October 15, 2013


If you struggle with addictions you better read this: Some wonder why it is they just can NEVER seem to get free from bondages like smoking, masturbation, porn watching, drugs, swearing, and rage....It is because they NEVER seen to be able to turn away from their LOVE of those ways in the times of temptation, hense they continue to give the demons behind it power over themselves, keeping them comfortably and WILLINGLY in their bondages.....A person who has never made up their mind fully to turn from sin certainly will never have any lasting victory over sin, and will quickly fold to the next craving the flesh sends out.....

Such people are good PROCRASTINATORS...Ever ready to say Jesus loves sinners, and how one day they will leave their addictions, but never willing to actually go and do the hard yards of crucifying the flesh and choosing Jesus and running the race with endurance...They are good TALKERS, and good ACTORS but lack the will or the want to turn away from the sins they so love to continue to keep choosing...

Some fight tooth and nail against satan for a while but soon tire and give up and go back to their sins all the more..In the end the flesh is Satisfied but their Spirits feel empty guilty and condemned.....Not even the lies about their salvation through Jesus can fill that condemnation they feel upon themselves...

DOES THIS SOUND FAMILIAR TO YOU? It sure does to me, in fact this was me.... till a few years ago...

You see I saw in my dream, believers in Christ who went into the heat of trial and this purified the good from the bad....Many went in, a FEW came out who SEPARATED themselves from their evil inside by a life dedicated to Jesus and living in self denying and following Jesus in ACTION (doer of the word) not in WORD (hearers only)

Many who did not make it, were they who quickly fell away back to their sins they loved.. the few who did make it, had at one point made a POINT BLANK DECISION FOR ONLY JESUS AND NO MORE SIN, and these became freed by the power of Jesus and since they were serious about their decision, they did not allow NO temptations from desires to bring them back to bondage and remained in the freedom of the Lord...

If you make Jesus you ALL and WANT that, and live your life according to that, then as a doer of the word you will experience also his freedom, his new way, the peace and confidence of being right with God AND you will have a new purpose to your life... It depends today dear soul, on what YOU WANT.......

Friday, October 4, 2013


There is an age old debate about whether or not predestination is true. I want to warn you that this is a lie from the devil. He tries to make of these little stories out of Scripture to deceive you into believing that you are predestined to enter heaven, or you are predestined to enter hell, so he gets some people to believe that they can never be saved, and he gets other people to believe that they are saved while they are living in evil paths. And then they hear Jesus say to them; go away I never knew you in worker of iniquity. Do not be deceived, although God does know the end result of how things will work out, he calls each and every one of you to repent and believe upon Jesus and follow him until the very end, and after you have endured and stayed faithful until the end, you will receive the crown of life. There is no predestined people.

God knows who are his, but he gives everybody the opportunity to turn from their sin. And he says that; I wish that none should perish but all have eternal life… But because of their hard hearts God often does not soften their hearts, because they do not love him nor want him. Sometimes he hardens their heart like he did Pharaoh, because their hearts hate him. But you see each man has a choice to love the Lord to obey him and to repent, and that is why the Lord said in Ezekiel 18; why must you perish O people? I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked. Why wont you turn to me repent and live? Says the Lord. Jesus said that all who believe on him shall pass from death to life, but people they don't want to come out of the darkness.. he said. They want to stay in the darkness lest their evil deeds are exposed in the light. That was the verdict. And so dear friends even though God knows the end result, you are responsible for making the decision for the Lord and repenting. Because that is what he asks you. And if you do that and you repent you will be saved. But if you don't repent and you just want to go on in sin thinking you're predestined, then don't be surprised if you shall come to the gates of heaven and knock, but the Lord will say from the inside; go away I don't know you depart from here......


It's very sad that in this time that Christians support war and they are lovers of violence, lover's of war, violence things like this. But we are not to be lovers of violence because God's ways are not man's ways. And he said that. Isn't it wonderful that the heart of God was revealed through Jesus Christ. And I see Christians they do not support the ways of Jesus. They are disobedient and they go and support God as a God of war. They try and say that his ways are man's way when God said to his ways are not man's ways. You see people's ways are war and violence. And in the days of Noah, God looked across the face of the earth trying to find a righteous man. And when he looked he was grieved in his heart at all the violence he saw upon the earth. He said that the people filled the land with violence and the cries of the victims reached high heaven. And so the Lord God was grieved that he created mankind and so he said to Noah: look I'm grieved at these people they fill the world with violence and evil and it tears my heart.

So I have decided to destroy these things that I've made. Destroy every living thing on the face of the eart… but Noah found favour with the Lord. Noah was a man of peace. I see many believers they support their soldiers that come back from the wars and these people they come back and they leave behind them destruction; broken families, dying children, babies without fathers… and other that's what they go to do. This time is like the days of Noah. The people love violence. You know war-games, “Call of Duty”, you know all these computer games that are great popular now. They have got millions and millions of views on on YouTube. They have a huge market, why? Because people these days are lovers of violence and love the ways of Satan. They love violence and they play violence daily. What did Jesus say about war? What did he say? The disciples saw some wicked people who were treating the Lord the wrong way and they said: Lord shall we call out fire upon heaven and destroy these people? And Jesus said: of course!! because he's a man of peace. Jesus said this he said: LOVE your enemy, do good to those that persecute you. He said: turn the other cheek. Jesus didn't say go to war. But God said that he would reveal his heart and through Jesus Christ he revealed it. And it's only those who obey and follow Jesus who will enter the kingdom. Not the bloodthirsty Christians who support war and violence. Know you can go and play your video games, your call of duty and all these games…. you know I get young Christian say to me: you know it's not doing violence…

Ah yes but you're PARTAKING in violence. You're SUPPORTING a system that kills men women and children, that separates families, that causes rapes and many evil things on the face of the earth. In fact you're supporting the days of Noah people. You're being like the days of Noah which means you will not escape when God decides to wipe you off the face of the earth. Are we loving violence today? Or are we're separating ourselves unto the Lord Jesus Christ and obeying his commandments. I am here to reveal the heart of God today. What did God say? He said: It grieves me that the wicked perish. He said: why O man don't you turned to me repent and be saved? Jesus as the solution to this world's problems. These people and atheists alike come to me and they say well if there was no armies we would have big wars and all sorts of trouble. But it is you who is the problem if you think like, this because if everybody was Jesus followers and they obeyed Jesus; they loved their neighbour, they turned the other cheek, they did not rip off their employees, they paid the fare wages, they didn't rape the earth of its resources and they lived to follow the Lord, this whole world would become a world after God's heart! There would be no more WAR. They would beat their war-heads into plowshares. That is what would happen if everybody became obeyers of Jesus. But the problem is that the 1 billion Christians in this world do not obey Jesus. In fact they hate him. They just don't obey him. They try and excuse themselves and their wickedness by using versus out of the Bible. They turn the words of God upon himself. But we are not here to be like them friends. We're here to obey Jesus and that's why I'm here. We're here to be man of peace, not men of war. We are followers and obeyers of Jesus Christ, we're warriors for the kingdom of God. And our enemies isn't mankind.

Our enemies is the devil and Satan who is deceiving all these people into doing these things and yet they're choosing it! On the day of judgment every man shall see how they played a part in the destruction upon the face of the earth. They will see every video game they played of violence and how they supported and loved it. They will see how they are really followers and lovers of Satan and they'll be ashamed before the Lord God, when they see how Holy And peaceful he is. He is not a God of war, the God of war is Satan. And that's the goal of this world. He is the prince of this world and that is what Jesus said, he is the prince of this world. He is not the rightful prince, he is only the chosen prince by the people. You see people have chosen Satan to be the prince of this world. That's why they get rape, that is why they get abortion, and get war. They try and say let's make the world a better place, let's do conservation, let us do all these things yet they don't go and follow and obey Jesus. When he sees his people love and do violence every day, support war, congratulate their warmongers, watch their violent movies with popcorn! Does not that make God sick! It does.

The solution comes when we turn to Jesus Christ, because we have one grace; and that is that God has mercy and patience. You know what God said? He said: I am not willing that any of the wicked shall perish but I am patient. He said he is patient and long-suffering for mankind to repent. So he allows all this wickedness to go on.

All this rape, murder, theft, war, evil, he allowed it to go on because he is patient waiting for men to repent. And they do. Some people start to repent. Friends it is time that we put the words of Jesus into PRACTICE and obey them. Let us not be like the wicked Christians who say that you don't have to obey Jesus, when Jesus himself said that he who does not obey my words does not love me…....